Juice Fast Day 1

Right, so my blender is gonna go ka-pish soon due to our occasional abuse of it over the last two years. Please just last for the next few days!!

Woke up and made myself a bowl (what? lazy student here!!) of carrot and apple juice. I don't have a juicer, as said, so had to resort to this method:


It works well for me, so no complains there.. at least not for now. I diluted it with quite a lot of water and it surprisingly still tasted yummy. Wasn't hungry through the afternoon as i went for a walk and to grab more ammo for my juice gun. I think this was because of all the extra calories I've had over the last three days. I know i should have weaned myself off food first before attempting anything, but sofar.. my body isn't reacting too badly. No side effects of nausea or giddiness yet, woohoo!

Next concoction i tried was:
Cucumber + apples + kale + orange

I've never had a good impression of green juices because they used to sell some kinda grassy nasty fluid probably a decade ago and it was the trend! There were aunties offering little cups of the green liquid at supermarkets and I remember trying one.... and vowing never to go near anything like it again. It was YUCKY!

But now that I'm an adult (hur hur yeah right), maybe what tasted bad when i was young would be palatable right now. Anyhow, I wasn't too keen on green/vege juices but I know they are essential in a juice fast. I know cucumber isn't technically a vegetable, but it's green la okay HAHA ;x okay, point is... the juice was DELICIOUS. I really enjoyed it and have another glass nursing in the fridge for later.

I'm gonna try making a 'greener' juice later in the day, maybe some kale, spinach, celery and apples/carrots to sweeten it up.

Sofar the verdict is:
I'm feeling pretty okay, but i can sense mucus building up in my nose.. which I've read is normal. No hunger pangs yet, but knowing me and my habits... it'll come sooner or later. Hopefully I'll hold out and not reach for some hummus on toast anytime soon :(

Oh and drinking lots of green tea too! 

Juice Fast: Yay or Nay?

So I've been contemplating on going on a juice fast recently as a sort of master cleanse to get rid of the crap in my body. God knows I've not been eating well AT ALL. Your body is your temple... and well, my body is now a dumpster. Sorry body, I really ought to treat you better.

Anyhow, so aside from my lack of self-discipline and control... I really do have everything I need.

1) A Blender
I should use a juicer, but I'm a poor student who has to rely on her ex boyfriend's portable blender. Making do!

2) Fruits
Now that I'm back in the UK, it's way easier to watch what I eat. That's a huge issue back home, considering my auntie consistently and diligently worries about whether I've eaten and buys me my favourite (unhealthy) food even when I don't ask. It's like, I want to cook or use the kitchen but it feels weird since it's technically her territory. Okay, excuses i know! Anyhow, I just bought a bag of carrots and apples :D My favourite juice combi!

I'm actually having a cup of apple+carrot juice right now, but it's pretty weird because it's more... mush than juice. I added water to it to make it more 'drinkable' but this is totally not the kinda stuff I had at home. Man, I miss my juicer.

Right, so I'm considering embarking on my virgin cleanse starting tomorrow. I haven't bought all the fruits and vegetables I'll be using. Might be good cause it gives me an excuse to head out to the supermarket (my favourite place!) and also to get some sun and fresh air. I'm a total kermit. No need to go out? Hell yeah, I'm staying in.

I've read quite a few articles about it to know what to expect, but I'm not sure if i've gone the ten miles to really educate myself on this.... but we'll see how it goes. Best way to learn is to try it for yourself, eh?

Day 1 starts tomorrow. Or maybe the day after. Or the day day day after.

See, I'm a big ass procrastinator (literally big assed)

I don't know whether it's a biological problem.. or just a mental/emotional thing.

I can't seem to concentrate and my brain always feels shrouded, like it's caught in a net. I don't know what's wrong. I feel weird. Weird as hell. It's been awhile.

This empty bedroom won't make anything right

If I am lost for a day; try to find me
But if I don't come back, then I won't look behind me
All of the things that I thought were so easy
Just got harder and harder each day

I dreamed I was dying; as I so often do
And when I awoke I was sure it was true
I ran to the window; threw my head to the sky
And said whoever is up there,please don't let me die

But I can't live forever,I can't always be
One day I'll be sand on a beach by a sea
The pages keep turning, I'll mark off each day with a cross
And I'll laugh about all that we've lost

What if?

What if this doesn't work out?
What if i cant find a job?
What if I can't do anything with this degree?
What if?

Why do i seem to put my life on hold once I'm in the UK?
It's something.. something that seems to make me less like that me at home.
It brings out the part of me that I haven't got to know as well.
And it's nice sometimes, getting in touch with this more mellow and disconcerted part of my soul.

But over here, I care less.
Care less about everything and just experience the moment.
The snow falling on my face, crunching on my soles, patting it off my coat... those little moments are nice. Ephemeral but calming.

Resolutions

I shall focus on changing/adding good habits to my lifestyle this year and some bigger ones that require more discpline

1. watch one TED talk everyday
2. make your bed
3. take love less seriously
4. have an apple a day
5. learn learn learn! read read read!
6. still, suck it up
7. be more comfortable in your own skin
8. care less about things that burdens you
9. watch as many movies from IMDB's top 250
10. read at least one book (not academic) a month

hey, old jingyi. i miss you.
your tenacity. your confidence. your devil may care attitude.
i miss that.